Monday Musings

I love Jesus.

I have a great family.

The abuse I experienced as a child is over.

I live in freedom from fear.

But I still suffer from depression and anxiety.

I cast my cares on the Lord only to pick them back up again later.

Some Christians say I just need to trust the Lord more.

I do trust Him…wholeheartedly.

Why won’t He take this from me?

Then I realize, He is preparing the way for my healing.

I’ve begun the process of healing and the process of forgiveness that I’d long abandoned.

The shame I used to feel in having these issues are wiped away, because I know His love for me.

I wasn’t created for this world.

I have felt His presence during numerous sleepless nights.

I have worshiped and praised when I was so low that I didn’t think I could take another step.

One foot in front of the other. That’s been life over the last year.

Like Dori on Finding Nemo, I “just keep swimming, just keep swimming.”

I am beginning to see the light. The fog in my brain is lifting. I am starting to sleep again.

I’m understanding that this season is merely a season and is not the defining factor of my life.

Not for a moment did He or will He forsake me. On the contrary, He lifts me up and pulls me through.

I am getting stronger. This battle has already been won.

Jesus is the Victor…my Hero.

My healing is coming.

*If you or someone you know suffers from depression/anxiety, please talk to someone who can point you in the right direction for health. You pastor may be good place to start.

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